Saturday, February 16, 2013

My continuous effort...

Here I am again, saying I want to become a blogger.  Keep my life ever updated on this electronic journal for everyone to see.  I have struggled in the past to write because people tend not to read what I write and I fail to see the point of writing for nobody.  However, now I would love to blog just for ME!  Just so I can have an awesome journal where I can easily upload photos and document my life and the life of my family!  Now I just need to figure out how to make the time to do this regularly.  Since August I have been struggling with time.  I have stretched myself so thin that I feel incompetent at any task.  I have to work, and because of this I feel as though I have become a less awesome mother (irrational I know... when I truly think about what I do I know in a humble way that I'm actually a pretty awesome one).  I feel like every second of my time with Vera has to be spent "making up" for all of that lost time that I haven't been with her!  And then, I feel like because I am a MOM when I'm home, I can't do the best job possible being a teacher.  I am constantly overwhelmed by the amount of grading and planning that I have ahead of me unfinished.  I feel as though I don't have a single second of time to stop and "be still."  So here I go... adding another thing for me to do!  FIND TIME TO BLOG!

Last time I wrote, Vera was like four months old.  She has now been one for a week and I literally can't believe it!  She is walking around and saying little words here and there.  She is eating BIG GIRL FOOD!  I love her so much!  How is it possible?  She is growing into a very smart and very beautiful little toddler!  We took her to Gilgen Photography for her one year photo shoot... and do you think that girl could smile??? Of course not!  "Why smile when you're paying Mommy?"  But we still got some good shots.  Here are the four previews we got:





So she is beautiful and amazing and for that we are extremely blessed!  I just feel so bad for her because she can't seem to stay healthy!  I promise; if it's not one thing, it's another.  She is either unable to breathe because of a cold, or she is vomiting and running a fever, or she has a double ear infection!  OR like right now, she is so congested that it is coming out of her nose and eyes AND she has her 2nd double ear infection in two months!  I feel so horrible!  I feel like she is getting so many germs from #1: being at daycare and just being around other children with different "bugs" and 2: I am a teacher.  I wallow in germs all day and then bring them home for her.  Both reasons are MY FAULT!  I just want her to be healthy and happy!  Is that really so much to want?  I truly have the best friend in the entire world because while expressing my feelings on my baby being sick this is the text that she sent me; "But you have to [go to work].. And other kids do the same thing and they grow up big and strong!  And when she is old enough for school she's going to have an immune system like a rock!  She'll maybe never miss a day of school and then she can get that awesome award for never missing a day of school her whole life!!  She'll be famous!"  BEST/MOST UPLIFTING TEXT EVER!!! :)  Thanks Amanda!  <3 p="">
We spent much of today at Texas Children's Hospital Emergency Room because of Vera's fever yesterday and then again today.  When we got to the ER her temp was 103.1.  Our Nurse Practitioner was wonderful!  She was sweet to Vera and got us out as quickly as she could.  Like I said... today she was diagnosed with her second double ear infection in two months.  Now I know things could be a lot worse.  There are babies and children out there with much bigger worries than a silly ear infection and I am amazingly grateful that everything that has ever been wrong with my baby is curable and minor in the grand scheme of things.  But it is still difficult to go through time after time, sickness after sickness.  Here is a picture of Vera in her little hospital bed today:




Even so sick she is pretty darn cute, right? :)

I guess this is life.  You have to take the bad with the good; and I have a LOT of good!  I have the best husband in the entire world.  He works so hard for our family and supports every single thing I do.  He is understanding and he just gets me.  I have the best daughter I could have asked for!  She is so much fun and I absolutely LOVE the privilege of being her mother!  She brings so much joy to my life!  I am grateful for my family!  I have awesome parents who constantly go out of their way for my family.  Whether they are babysitting for us, taking care of our little sickie while I go to work, bringing over random groceries or boxes of diapers, medicine for my sick husband while I go to work, or even a dinner because I'm about to lose my mind with everything I have going on, they are ALWAYS there for us!  I am blessed with an amazing job that I do truly love.  I have an amazing team at work that seem more like family members than just great people I work with.  We support each other and care for each other like I have never known possible at a JOB.  I think I might have died by now without them. :)

I truly love my life!  Sometimes it's hard, but it's so worth it! <3 all="" amazing="" are="" hank="" in="" life="" my="" nbsp="" p="" people="" that="" the="" to="" you="">
**SIDE NOTE:  Last year I did something we call "A Year of Dates."  I planned out 12 dates (one each month) and let Marvin open an envelope on the first of each month.  We would then go and do that one thing... at least we knew we would get in ONE date.  So this year Marvin is doing it for me. :)  I would like to share our experiences here this year as a sort of documentation for what we have done.  So this month, we went to a restaurant called Angus Grill Brazilian Steak House.  It's in the Galleria area and it was amazing!  They have groupons and that's how we could even afford it. :)  So after dinner we went and window shopped at the Galleria.  We decided what we would buy if someone said we can have $5 million as long as we can spend it all in one day.  We decided we want to become art collectors and almost ended up buying a $6000 photograph!  (Not really... Marvin wasn't eating it up as much as I was... Luckily he was there to stop me!  It might have happened without me even realizing it!  This guy was good!  But seriously... someday we would love to own this art.  Check out his work!  Peter Lik.  Then we found ourselves at the Tesla show room.  Oh wow... One day....


Next time we will do better and get more pictures... but it was so much fun!  AND I got an amazing skirt from WHITE HOUSE/ BLACK MARKET on mega sale!!! 

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